WOW

Here I am, thinking of him. He is just so sweet. Today was his birthday, told him happy birthday first thing this morning. He had been looking for truck, got one today. Oh I bet he is all smiles. Of course, I said that to him and he says a lil. I told him he should smile, I love his sexy smile. His response, "your not here". Well unfortunately that is true. My heart is there however.

He should be happy. He wants to make everyone else happy. I love to hear his voice, oh how sexy it is. He has his bedroom voice on when he talks to me. I smile every time I hear my text message sound goes off. I anticipate it is him everytime. Well when it's not, I loose that smile. He sends me a love you message and I melt. He just doesn't understand how much his sweet sweet loving personality makes me happy.

I wondered when we first met, when is this going to end. But you know what, it is not going to end, this is him. I am truly in love with him for so so so so so many reasons. Some I will not be putting in writing, LOL. I will not ever put his name on here either.

Let me tell you his smile. Oh boy! Yes I am this into him. I tell him too. I have become another person with him. I am a person who wants to share, care, love and follow her heart now. I am for the most part a happy person. I do have some drama to put up with....when you have an EX, you have drama.

I honestly wish I could spend every day with him but it's not fesiable. He works construction. That means he works hard and long hours. He is worth waiting for, everything I ever wanted. I never thought I would find a man like him. I had heard rumors they were out there. I had never seen them. LOL He thinks he hasn't done anything special. He doesn't realize that him being who he is, is all I need.

All I need is his heart, sweet kiss, and loving arms. When he holds me, I feel loved and safe. I can't wait until the next time I see him. We made the two weeks, oh it was hard. I'm not going to tell you that I just didn't want to run down to see him because oh yes I did. I never thought I was a hard person to figure out and he proves to me if they are the right person; there is nothing to figure out.

I am so loving with him. It's really not me. Or I didn't think that was me. I guess the right person, the right time and the right love, is all I needed to be the person I wanted to be. He makes me want to be a better person. His love makes me soft. I know for those of you who know me it seems weird. I really like the person I am since I met him. I seem to be stronger, nicer, more passionate, more loving and just all around happier.

I have asked myself many many times; is it him or is it me? Well I think it's pretty much the combination of the two of us. His sweetness seems to penetrate my mind, body and soul. I seem to have that sweetness for a few days after I have seen him.

Well my next thought, will he be moving back this way after this job is over? I don't know. I haven't asked. I think he might not know either. It's still a few months away but I just wander. I often wander if meeting me makes it harder on him in regards to his work schedule. Was he content before? Did he long for someone to love and hold? I know I was blindsided. I really thought I would still be running around, talking about the bad dates I had. I'm so glad that I am not.

As I've always been told, you get what you need, when you need it. I did. <3 you.